I wouldn’t have had you if I had an awareness
That I was unconsciously selfish and careless
Believing My children would always do well.
In blindness I birthed you in unconscious Hell.
If I’d known that my family genetics would matter
So much that no matter how hard I tried better
You both would still have to deal with our past
I would have made sure that I would be last.
I thought love and nurture could meet all your needs
That nature can change when true love intercedes
That you were blank slates in a new generation
Depression and fear can’t be passed through relation.
But now that your grown I’m able to see
That problems you face come from more than just me
From Grands and Great Grands both mother and father.
So were we just doomed with no reason to bother?
No we have made changes our family can see!
We are no longer blind and found ways to get free.
We woke up in Hell with mountains to climb.
We’ve conquered addictions one day at a time.
We’re still working to heal our fear and depression
By speaking our truth and supporting expression.
As our legacy changes it causes a shift
Our Hell once a burden transforms to a gift.
We now know our Family would never be healed
Without you in our lives because you revealed
That half the equation is loving and care.
So we constantly worked on ourselves to be there
And you showed us that half Is “the sins of the father”.
This woke us up more so we would still bother
You were born just in time in our unconscious Hell
And if you’d not come we’d still be there as well.