I spent my youth in limerence

From boys at school to far off prince

I thought this “love” was just the norm

Not love attachment, never formed

When I grew up I learned that longing

Wasn’t love, just not belonging

To a heathy grounded mother

That’s why I longed to find another

Even if no “love” existed

In my world my “love” persisted

Until I healed my child within

By going where I’d never been

And cried for our abandonment

Got mad for all our time ill spent

Until I had my child convinced

My love is real not limerence❤️

Did our founders deny self evident truths,

When they denied many to have any pursuits?

An autonomous life was denied the enslaved.

They never had liberty the Creator gave.

There was no happy pursuit to be had.

They weren’t treated equal just equally bad.

Not one was allowed their inalienable rights.

Our founders endowed them just 3/5 a life.

Our country’s foundation was built on their backs.

Their denial of self evident truths are the facts!

Teens shot at a party, with four dead, at least.

The Wild West is back and has now moved Southeast.

Modern day outlaws with weapons galore

Have shootouts on birthdays to even the score.

When teens have been raised in gun culture by parents

It’s easy to take what’s assumed they’ll inherit.

Does owning “good guns” keep most families safe,

Or more likely be used to act out teenage rage?

How many young lives are you willing to pay

For “good guns” turned bad that kill everyday?

If birthdays were last days for your daughters and sons,

Would that change your mind about owning “good guns”?

SO WHAT,

You walked her down the aisle

As press abused her all the while

Said racist things so cruel and vile

You let them wound her inner child

So now you want her to repay

That walk, on coronation day

But why the hell would she betray

Her inner child again that way?

So Meghan showed you loud and clear

As your coronation nears

She’s done promoting yesteryears

She’ll celebrate her future here.

Meghan you tried, you outshined the rest.

But there was no way that you’d pass their test.

So the father, step mother and sibling in-laws

Tried dimming your light that exposed their deep flaws.

Yet you were their chance to break the old curse;

But then they would choose to repeat, even worse.

They could have made changes, gone a new way,

Welcomed a woman of color to stay.

Be part of their family, and heal from the past.

Make Commonwealth nations feel welcome at last.

But they let their conscious and unconscious bias,

As racism prove to the world through their silence,

That they didn’t care to protect you from harm.

So you had to leave and heed this alarm.

And still you get hate if you will or you won’t,

Are damned by the press if you do or you don’t

Go back for more hate and abuse by a Nation

To watch sycophants drool at their “King’s” coronation!

I need a purging

A poem is emerging

I must let it out

My heart aches for their pain they’ve all been put through, for just standing up and living in truth.

As MAGA tormentors are crushing their rights, LGBTQ people have to fear for their lives.

So stop calling them pedophiles lurking in schools. Stop banning the teaching of health with new rules.

To keep our kids clueless does not make them “straight” it only makes bullies and victims of hate.

Has history borne out we’re all “straight” in the womb, until some are tricked being brainwashed and groomed?

NO, Science has proved we’re all born on a spectrum; our bodies and brains, many factors affect them.

Through time in the womb to endogenous sources converging events can create different courses.

So stop preaching hate and calling it sin. Change hate to love by healing within.

Then if your children are LGBTQ you’ll nurture their nature to live lives in truth.❤️

I was born in the South where most choose to sleep.

Most live in a dreamworld that they want to keep.

A white privileged dream where they make the rules;

Rewriting history once taught in all schools.

Can’t teach about slavery, Jim Crowe segregation,

Dr. King’s marches, that changed our whole nation.

Can’t talk about race because that’s about blame.

White privileged deniers hate owning their shame.

Why can’t they admit that our system is racist?

Our country can’t thrive if we do not face this.

You can’t enslave people, then put up a fight,

Be forced to free them, then not make things right!

We owe those who’ve passed and their bloodline survived,

Their vote, and the means to allow them to thrive.

And that dream that’s a nightmare for truth loving folk,

With our vote and our voices we’ll scream till they’re woke!

Who stacked the deck, fixed the cards I was dealt;

Oppressed my free will and emotions I felt?

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To survive in my family I couldn’t say no.

I lost all connection to body and soul.

So even when grown with no parents around

I couldn’t say no, was unconsciously bound

To react out a life with no self protections,

From boundary assaults to brutal rejections.

So as cognitive dissonance made a huge gap

My unconscious baggage fell down in my lap.

I saw how and why addiction hooks players.

Addiction is passed from unconscious creators.

Inherent ancestral control and oppression

Fuels rage and shame cycle’s addictive obsession.

For years I’ve done purges to heal shame and rage,

So my body and soul, once again, could engage.

So the fate of the cards I once thought had been sealed

Could transform through my body and soul to free will.

Experience, strength, and hope, not advice

Is all we should share, to say more is not wise.

No person on Earth knows what’s right for another

Not even close family, your father or mother.

So to offer advice for what others should do

Is not about them it is all about you

Projecting unconscious control from your past

Triggered to consciously heal it at last.

But instead of now healing your toxic control

You act out once again the same meddlesome role.

So unless you’ve experienced a similar fate,

And found strength within that you can relate

Enough to give hope they will find they’re own way;

Deal with your own issues, you don’t get a say.

I spent my whole life hoping
To be nurtured by my mother
I spent my whole life coping
Substituting with another
Acceptance from a friend
Or authorities unknown
Or I would just pretend
I was fine left on my own
So friends that I’d attract
Would do their best to care
But no one could give back
With all our cupboards bare
Unconsciously behind it all
Yet many years ahead
I felt the truth behind my wall
And suddenly felt dead
It took more than a year for me
To know the reason why
Why so much rage and fear in me
Had made my friendships die
No friend on earth can substitute
The nurture of your mother
It cannot grow without a root
Be grafted from another
The time had come to let them go
Illusions fully grieved
How could they give or even know
What they had not received
I had to start anew within
By planting my love’s seed
With nurturing it grew within
Fulfilling my own need
So one day I’ll be ready
From deep roots I’ve grown tall
As fruits of love grow steady
I then can nurture all

“Thoughts and prayers” don’t mean they care, and cannot stop insanity.

When angry teens are given means to lose their soul’s humanity.

At eighteen years, can’t buy a beer, but buys himself war weapons,

Enough to kill his prey at will, a massacre in seconds.

Children, as their stalker killed, cried HELP to save their lives.

Their plaintive words remain unheard, their help would not arrive.

As “good guns” wait with help too late the wounded children died.

While parents wept as they were kept from running to their side.

The NRA and those they pay can keep their “Thoughts and Prayers”.

Till laws and rules create safe schools they just pretend they care.

This has to change, no more deranged blind EGOS taking bribes.

Politician’s blind ambitions must be stopped this time!

A metaphor for our time.

No wonder we chose to deny our ninth planet. The truth was soon coming so we tried to ban it.

But unconscious Karma is still coming around. So our shame and the truth we repressed can be found.

From the very first day our American dreams came true with denial of unconscious screams

Trying to wake us and tell us it’s wrong, to lie, steal, and kill to bulid nations strong.

But that’s what we did to build our new nation. We stole native’s land then enforced reservations.

We kidnapped then trafficked enslaved human beings. We worked them to death without ever feeling

The shame we deserved and worked hard to suppress that soon went unconscious to not cause distress.

So it’s not surprising when Karma reveals, hypocrites rise once again to conceal.

Lessons in books that could heal us, if learned. But the books that cause white people shame must be burned.

So we’re doomed to repeat when we ban what is true. Play out karma’s fate till we pay what is due.

Staying stuck in a cycle as shame takes us down. No hope for transcendence till truth is avowed.

But if truth is allowed to purge shame for our past. Then we will transcend, finally be Free at Last!

Does the Arc of the moral universe bend

towards Justice?

When will this Arc find it’s end?

Don’t trust this

when Justice is always pushed back

so many times our minds have lost track.

Because we’re unconscious unable to see

True Justice can never be served till we’re free

from unconscious judgement denied through projection.

Self judgment from shame caused by unjust rejections.

As children abused, our hearts hardened early

to deaden the pain we received without mercy.

But now our self judgement we learned to project

Can be owned and transformed to self love and respect.

If we heal childhood pain from injustices faced.

Faced not by just us but the whole human race.

Then we’ll feel once again when Injustice is done.

With hearts full of mercy we’ll heal one by one.

Then when critical mass ignites our mass conscience

we’ll feel Justice near and no longer beyond us.

Then Justice For ALL we thought distant, comes early.

For the Arc now bends freely to Justice through mercy.

Alright Jehovah strike me down dead. I’ve found a new path, I’m moving ahead.

Would a heavenly Father send children to hell for not choosing to blindly obey him, please tell?

I’m just a human, a mother of two, yet know in my heart and my soul it’s not true.

True love of a Father won’t come with a price. Only blind EGO demands sacrifice.

So I’m gonna say it, Jehovah’s a myth, an old Saturn archetype of structure and death.

From the Taurean Age, to Aries the Ram, to Piscean fishes, sent forth by the lamb.

But now a new age begins a transition. Aquarian souls who were born for this mission

Will usher us to the Aquarian age when Piscean purging makes clean the next stage.

Then our minds will be clear for we’ll carry our water. No more sacrifice of our sons or our daughters.

We’ll have two thousand years to finally be done with heaven and hell when true love makes us ONE

For almost two years parents and children have feared falling prey to a virus.

Once the parents were safe, their protection instilled, then Covid raged forward despite this.

Because some refused to do what they should, to get the vaccine for the children.

So for months children waited, in vigilance stood, to be free from the threat that might kill them.

So cheers for the children who can now have protection from the ones who refused to agree.

Who anxiously waited to get their injection so their families could finally be free.

The parents who held constant watch understand the storm their family has weathered.

They cry as their bare armed little one, says “Let’s hold hands, we got through this together”.

To get the vaccine or wear a damn mask, to prevent us from dying, is not a huge ask.

Yet selfish abusers, just do as they please, don’t care if they’re spreading a deadly disease.

Their choice might infect an elder or child who have rights but no choice if their body’s defiled

By a virus they spread through “liberty rights” when they choose to be vectors emboldened by spite.

So we have to make rules to protect all the rest who above their own freedom they choose what is best.

To take the vaccine yet must still wear a mask because narcissist vectors won’t help with the task

Of doing what’s right to protect many others; instead invite death that affects many others.

So “My body My choice” no longer applies when their body and breath could become weaponized!

Only a woman can choose to give life. To choose not to give it does not lose a life.

No more than a flight that must be aborted for multiple reasons some flights aren’t supported.

There must be repairs to make the plane steady or pilot and traveler need time to get ready.

When the pilot’s equipped they can go all the way with the traveler ready this time for their stay.

They begin a safe journey with lives now supported for no lives were lost just a bad trip aborted.

“Pro-lifers” shout murder, preach, thou shalt not kill, quote rules they made up for when life is instilled.

Yet we know “pro-lifers” will flip in contortion to cheer in a death chamber postbirth abortion.

Who’s journey in life began with a breath that instilled Human Rights till their life yields to death.

They don’t care about lives, or their rights after birth, just forcing precarious journeys to earth.

But care for their rights to choose their religion. Then use their beliefs to take rights from ALL women!

But the ones who’ve evolved to choose what is best know that no one but them is involved in this test.

And will never comply, if abortions are banned; have their bodies held hostage to birth on demand!

Know when journeys toward life are not safe and supported, to postpone isn’t murder, just a journey aborted.

As for those shouting murder it’s pure misdirection of their own dark desires they deny through projection.

So we’ll shout till they wake, stop projecting their vengeance; “LOOK IN THE MIRROR & MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS!”

Monarchy thrives when they all “know their place”, when “commoners” not only choose but embrace

Positions in life that hold up their “betters”, that pay just enough to pay off golden fetters.

For hundreds of years the “common” were told the monarch protects them and for this they’re owed

Trust and respect, Eternal allegiance. This kept them “knowing their place” without grievance.

Vicarious living through blue blooded tales now keeps them in place when their lives becomes stale.

Cheering at shows of white privilege and pride, to this common bond their fetters are tied.

And in doing, accept they’ve long been conditioned to cheer for a show with no chance of admission

Or share in this wealth of these castles and lands they view from a distance yet pay tax on demand.

So why doesn’t Monarchy fall in disgrace? The “common” uphold them by “knowing their place”.

No knee should bend nor eyes look down in reverence to raise a crown. For “Royal” blood does not exist, just rivals fighting in the mist. The winner claimed the title “King”. What did this change in bloodline bring?

Incestuous insanity bred Kings and Queens of tyranny. Made wars to conquer foreign lands to meet entitled “royal” demands.

They claimed they represented God, divine by blood in grand facade. These lands they conquered they would claim were their’s to plunder in God’s name.

Still to this day they think it’s right they killed and stole with ruthless might! In recent years set some lands free, yet made not one apology!

Now all kings and queens must fall as karma comes to level all. The blight and pain they left behind, must now be recompensed, they’ll find.

For now the young have come to see, there cannot be equality for the poor or in between the sycophants of “royalty”.

So for our future global health the “royals” must return the wealth their greedy bloodline stole and passed to keep their “royal” idols cast.

Then balance and equality can supersede idolatry. So poor can rise as Queen comes down from pedestal to common ground. Here all can see, for there’s no mist, that royal blood does not exist.

Why would “spiritual” people think Trump’s their messiah? That a vile lying con man could bring TRUTH to Gaia?

That Trump would expose the global Cabal, When Putin hand picked him to join with them all.

You’ve quadrupled down and staked reputations, that Trump will not lose and would rule every nation.

You’ve waited four years for when ALL is disclosed, and not ONE SINGLE pedophile ring is exposed.

Not ONE SINGLE child has been rescued or saved. Or ONE SINGLE arrest of the sick and depraved.

What’s going on, could your cult just be wrong? Or are these disclosures about YOU all along?

Disclosing the fact you’ve projected illusions, created by unconscious clouds of delusions.

These clouds became darker with each date that went past, shrouding the truth so your ego could cast

Bizarre deranged worlds where evil abounds. Forced outside of you where your scapegoats are found.

Using Democrat scapegoats, your delusions of evil, have made YOU the traitors of the American people.

But your treasonous acts have caused your exposure; your insurrection has FAILED, now you’ll reap full disclosure!

The core of Q’s conspiracy theory is children are born underneath New York City. So Democrat “demons”, through child sacrifice, can harvest their blood to keep them alive. They can only be saved by Qanon’s savior. The anti Christ Trump who’s a Judas, a traitor. How was this outlandish delusion conceived? Is an unconscious metaphor why they believe?

Underneath lives in chaos were souls torn apart by unconscious “demons” consuming young hearts. Whose abusive “Caretakers” would use then forsake them. With boundaries left shattered their lifeblood was taken, by ones meant to love and take care of these souls. So fear went beneath in unconscious control.

For this child to survive they made shields of delusions unconsciously channeled creating illusions; made scapegoats to blame for what loved ones had done. Like Stockholm survivors denied the real one. Cast demons as saviors so they could deny the dangerous truth that they may not survive.

Then when they grew up it felt true worlds abound, with “Demons” that sacrifice kids underground. So they cast once again a false “savior” protector, but in truth Trump’s “the Devil they know” who’s projected, on Democrat scapegoats who see through the lies of the Devil they know in a Savior disguise.

So how do we stop this, how do they heal, how do we wake them and prove what is real? We save ourselves first from real blood sacrifice. If their “demons” attack us they must pay a price. Within walls that surround them and keep them contained until their delusions resolve and they’re sane.

You cannot prove truth to those lost in illusion. Their worlds must crash down to begin evolution. They then must reflect, might need many years, to wake from the hell they created in fear.

So rational minds must pick up the pieces of a world torn apart by mental diseases. We must move on ahead bring sanity back by speaking the truth and, defending the facts.

We then must make norms into laws to protect us. Hope that one day they will meet and respect us. But only if all their delusions resolve, can ALL be united, as ONE COUNTRY evolve.

Taking the “high road” with Trump is denial

The high road for Trump will take him to trial

Or as many trials needed to pay for his crimes

We’ve waited too long as it is, now it’s time

He’s gotten away with breaking our laws

For five long hard years at no time did he pause

If he still gets away without an accounting

He’ll continue his damage that can’t be surmounted

Might return in four years in a new reign of terror

America would literally die, he won’t spare her

He’d continue to rob her, assault, and abuse her

To line his own pockets, as her pimp, again use her

There is no way in hell she could even begin

To withstand more abuse and live through this again

There would be no more “high roads” to take if we fell

Down again, to once more ride the Trump train to Hell!

Why would black and brown people and women support Him?

When Trump, he does nothing, but loathe and abhor them

Why grovel to white men for crumbs off their table?

Why join the sick party that wants them disabled?

Why sell your soul for proximity to power,

Like slave overseers to make your own cower?

Can’t beat them then join them! Be winners and choosers!

But choosing Trump’s cult made them beggars and losers

For they were just used to keep Trump in his tower

As fools they pumped fists to keep him in power

Saying ” Hey look at me, this man’s not a racist”

“I’m part of his party and I’m on his A list”

“I’m a good MAGA woman and I treat my man good”

“Trump rules like my man does, like a MAGA man should”

And until they wake up from this bad MAGA dream

And do inner healing to get self esteem

They will keep being Tokens and keep being used

To mask their Cult leader who loves to abuse

ALL women and people of color who hurt

When a racist misogynist lies and diverts

To mask true agendas and hide MAGA schemes

With Diversity Tokens that keep white men supreme

How in the world did so many get taken, down deep in delusion’s abyss?

Fundamentalist mind’s have sadly mistaken, as truth what were meant to be myths

Brainwashed to believe unbelievable tales, so dissonance stirred up a cloud

That shrouds what is real and where beliefs fail, so they stay in the box they’re allowed

So over the years with no real education, they kept preaching the fear they’ve been taught

So fear of damnation and the loss of their nation, became storms of delusional thought

So Trump comes along with new lies and would dupe them, because they were primed to deceive

Then Qanon comes with lies so damn stupid, that only Trump fools would believe

He just scooped them all up without a sane word, and made them part of his cult

With racist dog whistles his cult members heard, what they’ve wanted since they’ve been adults

To keep the White Christians in their rightful position, as God’s chosen he made them supreme

These “chosen” supported Trump’s selfish ambition, in a deal to fulfill MAGA dreams

So how does this end can we stop their delusion before Democracy’s done?

We finally replaced their “Dear Leader’s” illusion, in the latest election we won

When delusions play out when their God doesn’t save, the fool they elected to steal

Democracy’s home of the free and the brave, and they’ve lost forever, Trump’s deal

And when Qanon fables and lies come undone and they’re concrete beliefs become myths

They can then lighten up and evolve with the ones, above delusion’s abyss.

The election of Trump seemed without rhyme or reason. I couldn’t accept everything has a season.

What deep rooted rage had spawned this nightmare so that half of our country would go blind and not care?

Trump’s lost moral compass lost kids at the border, gassing protesters he would call law and order.

He downplayed the pandemic and science as well, and started our spiraling down into hell.

To let people die maybe into the millions; so the rich could make money into the trillions.

Still he couldn’t believe that he lost re-election with an ego so fragile he’d deny his rejection.

Then lie about fraud so he could redo the election he lost and if not have a coup.

Why can’t the blind feel, how destructive he is, in delusion deny, how disruptive he is.

So it’s left to the rest to make sure when He’s finished that never again will a Weak Man diminish

Democracy’s reign at our Country’s expense so a Fool could be king in a MAGA pretense.

So it’s time to reflect on the lessons we’ve learned. Democracy can be lost and we must be concerned.

Trump’s crimes left unchecked have now shown rhyme and reason; norms MUST become Laws to prevent Crime and Treason!

Tabloids and haters use Meghan and Harry

As scapegoats of unconscious rage, made to carry

Hundreds of years of racist classism

Seen round the world as Imperialism

They came to join forces to build and cross bridges

But at the same time still fulfill their main missions

Protect their own lives and the life of their son

There is no real life if boundaries aren’t done

To be public and private are not contradictions

They can choose to speak out and still make restrictions

They aren’t paid by the system so there’s no more excuse

For tabloids and haters to dole out such abuse

To those who found freedom they want back in control

So they hide under bridges as they try taking tolls

To keep them from crossing their bridge between races

And their bridge between classes where all have equal places

But Meghan and Harry no longer owe tolls

To cross their own bridges they don’t have to pay Trolls!

“Never complain, never explain, you must keep to our strict code of silence.”

For a woman of conscience this code was pure nonsense no way could she live in compliance.

How could a girl who spoke truth to the world be a woman whose voice is controlled?

Who’s never allowed to speak truth out loud and her side of the story be told.

The Firm had a chance to soften their stance, be open to changing the system,

But their feigned color blindness was seen through in their silence revealing the truth of racism,

And sexist beliefs that hide underneath the facade of a Consort and Queen.

Who promotes patriarchy behind her monarchy that keeps fear controlled and unseen.

Unconsciously scared they chose not to care to call off the dogs in the press.

They were threatened by freedom that she’d supersede them so in fear they chose to regress.

To again not complaining and never explaining as their chance for real change had to leave.

For her family’s protection and her soul’s resurrection she had to move on to achieve

What Meghan and Harry and Archie will carry this message that some chose to fear;

For sick systems to change we all must complain, to explain this is why they are here!

Charles was forced by the rules to marry a virgin

This “blue blooded” tale had to be the Firm’s version

No matter the harm that it did to all three

Pawns that they used whose real lives could not be

So they cast a facade as a show for the Crown

Charles kept Camilla which kept his wife down

Unconsciously living their ancestor’s fate

King Edward and Alice and his Queen would create

This old toxic tale to recast through the system

Remaking a fate no one real could exist in

Till finally the blue blooded tale came undone

Unraveling lies of the tale the Firm spun

Living the tale had come to cost all

They all lost some time but Diana lost all

So what moral is gained from this tragic old tale

Repeating bad fates should make bad systems fail

Like this system of Royals clinging hard to the past

So it’s time for the Red Blooded Spares they’ve outcast

To build a new system a real life paradigm

So “blue blooded” tales stop recasting in time