I used to wish I had never been born. Between pleasure and pain my life had been torn. This life felt like mostly a fight to survive. A hope for relief is what kept me alive.

So I tried doing more or completely abstaining. But this didn’t work I just kept creating a much deeper cycle that was harder to break. So how do I balance my pleasure and pain?

My intuition led to expression, of anger and shame causing manic depression. I was shamed for my pleasure then had pain from self hate. Anger turned inward is what shaming creates.

It’s passed through generations then instills in genetics. It make us bipolar, electromagnetic. Through polarized cycles goes round and round with each generation spiraling down.

Until we wake up because of addiction or cycles of pain caused by many afflictions. And if we’re awake and seek to stay conscious we can finally express in the flow and can stop this.

Stop cycles creating unconscious lives. When expressing true feelings our conscience can thrive. With our true guidance system we stay more in the flow. We become our authentic selves as we go.

There are still ups and downs over the years but as long as we’re real and transmuting fear, we can move forward in truth, self-revealing. I’m finding my balance through authentic healing.

Trump now refuses to follow the law.

If SCOTUS can’t stop him then they’ll lose it all.

If they back down, appease, and don’t check him,

He’ll Check mate them all, then Supremely eject them.

Then do as he pleases to finish his coup,

As the Nine face Trump Justice on Fifth Avenue.

With a hoard of gang members, and Trump their crime boss. He threatens the world with tariffs and loss.

If they won’t kiss his ring and his lily white ass, he’ll keep up the tariffs and they won’t get a pass.

He blackmails and threatens to stop DEI. Steals grants away if Schools don’t comply.

Blackmail and shake downs is how the Trumps roll. This is all Trump’s self hate he projects from his soul

Onto foreign gangs and the Central Park five, he wants scapegoats in prison to pay with their lives.

But what Trump’s really showing, that most cannot see, is his unconscious knowing, it’s where he should be.

I’m numb, yet I’m fearful. That’s how I’m feeling. America’s downfall has most of us reeling.

So many shoes dropping and hitting the floor, no one is sleeping, just waiting for more.

Trump’s fascist agenda is now in full swing. He’s taken control and crowned himself king.

Half of us warned you of what Trump would do. He’s full on revealing that we’re in a coup.

As he slashes and burns America down with his hate and revenge that his cult has unbound.

There’s no going back you can’t barter or beg. You bought your racism sold as Trump’s rotten eggs.

But when we are razed to the ground by Trump’s fate, and we’ve proved without doubt we have never been great.

Then maybe most people will vote for a change. Repair our wrongdoing and then birth a new age.

Make equality and Justice for All, our foundation. Make our Founder’s ideals finally true for our Nation.

Undocumented immigrants in the U.S. are entitled to due process rights, a fundamental principle of the U.S. Constitution. This means they are guaranteed fair legal proceedings and protection against arbitrary deprivation of life, liberty, or property. 

Due process is justice for all human beings. All deserve justice with a judge overseeing.

Constitutional rights must be held sacrosanct. To deny one, due process, hurts all of our fates.

For when one is denied then others will follow. If they go today, then we go tomorrow.

All human beings, even gang members, must get their due process, be proved they’re offenders

before they are sentenced to life in a prison. Only fascists would make this illegal decision.

So we must stand up and call for the fascists to be brought to justice have due process the fastest

within 90 days as fast as their coup. Prison for traitors is way overdue!

What happened to Christian’s who once tried to save the souls of the lost and bring them to faith?

They went into prisons to spread their good news. They offered forgiveness of sin and refuge.

But now they round up who they label illegals, shackle and chain them like they are not people.

We don’t know who they are, or have proof of their crimes. Yet they force them to work camps to do endless time.

Without a due process, might spend life in prison. Is this treatment of “strangers” what Christ had envisioned?

There’s no cruelty left beyond comprehension, as Christian’s applaud heinous sins of commission.

Can they ever come back from Trump’s cruel abyss? Or drown still believing they’re righteous in this?

The only way out of the depths of Trump’s Hell, repent doing evil, break his Anti Christ spell.

Why are we back, facing Trump once again? Why would so many still vote for this man?

Trump ran to use them as pawns in his mission, to rob them, and cheat them, and stay out of prison.

They’re fine with the crimes of their proud reprobate. Want Trump’s Armageddon to end those they hate.

So blind that they chase their foretold Antichrist into the abyss of hate, greed, and vice.

So what can we do when they’ve chosen to do this? We resist and we hope we can finally get through this.

To keep building a world that supports and assists us to transform the hate of ones set against us.

To Christ consciousness love, compassion, and kindness that removes the scales from their eyes, willful blindness.

Why is it that some who are bullied and broken,

Rejected, yet used by the right as a token,

Do the same thing that was once done to them.

They lose all perspective of where they have been.

They now drink the water drawn from the mainstream.

Are poisoned like them thinking they’re now supreme.

Why don’t they support the rights of TQ

To express who they are to their own selves be true.

Some groups even say now they’re just L G B.

They drove the bus over Q plus and the T.

Now just like MAGAs they kick family out,

Always just one vote away from their clout.

With MAGA in power they’ll be forced to feel

When hypocrites learn that Karma is real.

I felt safe in my country for 59 years.

For the last seven, I am anxious with fear.

Democracy’s fate is deeply in danger.

Fascists are taking our rights with such anger.

They want to go backwards and live in the past.

Don’t want to cast votes, want stones to be cast.

We can’t accept loss of inalienable rights

By a court, that unjustly, was stacked to rewrite

The laws we thought settled a long time ago.

Pretending our progress was only a show.

We only have hope if we save our Democracy.

Our founders were clear we are not a theocracy.

We must reinstate, church and state, separation,

Let laws progress and address reparation

Of rights to all people so none should have fear.

So, at present, and future, all have safe golden years.

Why would black and brown people and women support Him?

When Trump, he does nothing, but loathe and abhor them

Why grovel to white men for crumbs off their table?

Why join the sick party that wants them disabled?

Can’t beat them then join them! Be winners and choosers!

But choosing Trump’s cult made them beggars and losers

For they were just used to keep Trump in his tower

As fools they pumped fists to keep him in power

Saying ” Hey look at me, this man’s not a racist”

“I’m part of his party and I’m on his A list”

“I’m a good MAGA woman and I treat my man good”

“Trump rules like my man does, like a MAGA man should”

And until they wake up from this bad MAGA dream

And do inner healing to get self esteem

They will keep being Tokens and keep being used

To mask their Cult leader who loves to abuse

ALL women and people of color who hurt

When a racist misogynist lies and diverts

To mask true agendas and hide MAGA schemes

With Diversity Tokens that keep white men supreme

For hundreds of years to keep their blood “pure” they married their cousins so they could ensure a blue blooded line would be their succession. Above all the rest, they’d be best without question.

But then they seemed changed when William met Kate. “Look we’re evolving and changing our fate”! We opened our doors! Let a commoner in. In just a few years we’ll forgive her, her sin. She’ll be one of us, white, stoic, and silent. She’ll birth us an heir, and some spares, be reliant. But, when came their best chance for the most evolution, they proved that their change was just an illusion.

Buried deep down in the Firm’s inner core were roots of racism they’d learned to ignore. You can’t build an empire if all humans have rights. “We’re just raising the lowly with all of our might”. Yet now all they say to this day “We’re not racists”. Their racism won’t go away til they face this.

Admit that their blue blooded tales were just wrong. Come down from their thrones, where all people belong. Denounce what they’ve done in the past as The Firm. Start true evolution and show they can learn. And then in the future if they’ve proven their change. Harry and Meghan might then re-engage.

To get the vaccine or wear a damn mask, to prevent us from dying, is not a huge ask.

Yet selfish abusers, just do as they please, don’t care if they’re spreading a deadly disease.

Their choice might infect an elder or child who have rights but no choice if their body’s defiled

By a virus they spread through “liberty rights” when they choose to be vectors emboldened by spite.

So we have to make rules to protect all the rest who above their own freedom they choose what is best.

To take the vaccine yet must still wear a mask because narcissist vectors won’t help with the task

Of doing what’s right to protect many others; instead invite death that affects many others.

So “My body My choice” no longer applies when their body and breath could become weaponized!