I was just seventeen and looking at college
Finishing high school secure in the knowledge
That I’d find a way to stay on the right track
But from my unconscious a bomb blew me back
I was sick to my stomach blindsided by shame
I kept my mouth shut I could not face the blame
My dad would disown me no way could he cope
I’d be out in the street without any hope
With no parent to turn to and only one friend
I would make a decision I could not rescind
I made the appointment frozen in fear
How in the world did I find myself here?
With my friend there beside me I’d wait for the call
To come back and wait once again in the hall
Then when my turn came to lay down on the bed
I almost walked out but by something was led
To go on ahead and submit to this test
Was I really doing, for all, what was best?
“Yes” my mind heard but was more like a voice
“It’s right for both possible lives, the best choice.
“Remember that time I told you, they’re here”.
“Your Son and your daughter in spirit are near”.
“Watching and waiting for when destiny’s due”.
“At a time that is right for both them and for you”.